Heaviness

My last two posts were a little heavy so I'll try to be bit less focused on my philosophies on life for now. I just read some other teenage blogs and they are a lot more relaxed and funny and a lot less depressing.
So...
I am really worried about after high school. When I hear the word university, I cringe. I have no idea how I'm going to pay for it. I don't want to get a huge student loan because the interest is insane and I don't want to still be paying it off when I'm 50. My parents aren't paying any of it except books. It cost like $20,000 a year for courses, food and residence. I don't have that kind of money. I have $3000 saved up so far. I will be in university for about 6 years. That's about $120,000 on university. That's a shit load of money. I will have to take a year off before university to work. So...let's say I make $18,000 that year add $2000 from this summer and $2000 from next summer plus $3000 working through next year and the $3000 I have saved. That's $28,000. Then I will work while I am in university. About $3500 during each year and $2500 in the summers. Approximately $56,000 that pays about half. Then add scholarships and if my parents give me any...so I will need like a $55,000 student loan. Holy fuck.
Sorry for going on about this. It's pretty boring. I am so freaked out. That wasn't light. That was heavy. My heart hurts.

until next time, ciao.
Jennifer the very worried whale breeder