"I looka like a fool last night!"

It's Friday. My parents and little sisters went away to Montreal. So my sister and I are chillen' without 'em until next Saturday.:)
It's pretty much a blizzard outside so like all the schools are closed. I don't have school anyways so it feels like a waste of a snow day to me. It's exam week and I am done my exams. I had English, Environmental Science, Instrumental Music and Voice. I think I passed all of them but I'm a bit nervous about the English one. I didn't do the math one because I already failed and it would be a waste of 2 hours. My math teacher called and said I could still make it but I would rather sit at home and do nothing.
Hmm...
Oh yes, I slept over at Danica's house on Wednesday night with Ashton and we went to to the voice exam together. It was a good time. We did karaoke(these eyes) , made Nacho Libre videos and took hilarious pictures. I love these people.
The voice exam was to sing in the auditorium, on stage, into a microphone in front of the whole class. It was really scary. I love being on stage but I felt I could have done better. My voice was shaky, my high notes were off key, and I did the trills wrong. Mr. MacGillivray and Mrs. Dominie were there. I would compare MacGillivray to Simon Cowell and Dominie to Paula Abdul. Haha. Oh well, no use dwelling over it. I don't know what I'll do today but hopefully it involves leaving my house and seeing Brittany.

Exams.

It's 11:35. I have two exams tomorrow. I still have a shitload of studying to do. But I'm tired so I'm going to bed. I finished A Streetcar Named Desire and read Nineteen Eighty-four. I didn't like the latter of the two. I found it very well written and the plot was insane and so well thought out but I just didn't like it. Anyway. Goodnight

bye.

Late for school, lacking a book, having to volunteer and on my gosh darn period.

I should be at school right now. It 10:30 am. I don't feel well and I didn't do my homework. But, I want to go. I don't want to miss English class because I love it in a way and I think the teacher is brilliant. I also need a new book to read. I hate not having something to read, I feel like I'm missing something. I kind of want to read A Streetcar Named Desire but I want to see what MacGill has in mind first.
I am singing, and playing piano and clarinet today at the retirement home. I used to go twice a week but I haven't gone in about a month so I need to get back into the habit. I feel strangely nervous. I've gone plenty of times but I still think I'm going to do a bad job every time.
My bangs are being fucking retarded today. I don't know why I mentioned that but I know it's annoying me. I'm taking the city bus to school. It comes at 11:10 I think but I don't know. Well, I better go do my homework and get ready to leave. Also I'm on my period which is annoying and I'm in a pretty pissed off mood. But yeah.

Until next time, Ciao.
Jenn-the-late for-school-whale-breeder

So many fantastic books, so little time.

I just finished a great book. The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time. It was fantastic. My English teacher, Mr MacGillivray lent it to me. In the past two and a half weeks I've read, The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time, Lives of Girls and Women, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, The Sun Also Rises, and The Unbearable Lightness of Being. They are all pretty phenomenal. I feel differently towards Harry Potter than the others. My favorite was The Unbearable Lightness of Being which is officially my second favorite book. My first being Hamlet.
I don't particularly feel like writing right now.

Until next time, Ciao.
Jenn

Bad dancing English teacher

Hmm...where to begin.
I have almost officially decided what I want to be. English Teacher. I will need a Bachelor of Arts(English) minor in philosophy I'm thinking I want something drama related as well and Bachelor of Education. A bud of mine, Kirsten wants pretty much the same thing I found out today so I'm pretty excited! I think I'm going to St. Thomas...I'm so excited!!!
What else is new...
Oh yes, I had my audition for the musical today! It was so scary. I nearly fainted. I did a monologue and sang and it was fun but I was really nervous. I hope I did okay. We are most likely doing the musical, Cats, which is one of my all time favorites. I really hope I get a part. There is about 20-25 parts and about 70 people signed up for auditions! Some people didn't show up for their auditions today though. If I could play anyone I would be Rumpleteazer, or Jemima but, I would be happy with anything. I'm really scared I won't get in...ahhhhhh!!! The dance audition's are soon too and I am a TERRIBLE dancer. So...yeah.
Anyways.

Until next time, Ciao.
Jennthewhalebreeder

Broken piano, fight with my mom and audition.

Hello.
I took apart my piano today. It's old and a bunch of keys are stuck together. It's quite annoying. I learned to play a Regina Spektor song, but it's using chords. I pretty much only use chords unless I'm learning a song to sing. The song is called "Raindrops".
I fought with my mom today. She is annoyingly mad at me. I hate when people ignore me, so, this breaks my heart.
I HAVE AN AUDITION TOMORROW! I'm actually so nervous. I feel like I'm not prepared enough. I always do really bad and can't sing and I read the monologue and don't even act at all because I'm so scared. I already have major butterflies in my stomach. The song(Mama who bore me from Spring Awakening) is amazing and extremely difficult for me to sing and I am probably going to ruin it. I still haven't picked a monologue yet. I'm choosing between this comical one about a girl asking her boyfriend if she looks fat or a dramatic one about a fight with a boyfriend. I'm sort of leaning towards the comical one but, I'm not entirely sure. I'm the last person to go tomorrow and I'm auditioning for my two absolute favorite teachers, Mr MacGillivray and Mrs. Dominie. They teach English and Music. I either want to be an English or a Music teacher. Preferably English. Anyways, off topic. I am so scared...

Until next time, Ciao
redeerb elahw eht refinnej

Heaviness

My last two posts were a little heavy so I'll try to be bit less focused on my philosophies on life for now. I just read some other teenage blogs and they are a lot more relaxed and funny and a lot less depressing.
So...
I am really worried about after high school. When I hear the word university, I cringe. I have no idea how I'm going to pay for it. I don't want to get a huge student loan because the interest is insane and I don't want to still be paying it off when I'm 50. My parents aren't paying any of it except books. It cost like $20,000 a year for courses, food and residence. I don't have that kind of money. I have $3000 saved up so far. I will be in university for about 6 years. That's about $120,000 on university. That's a shit load of money. I will have to take a year off before university to work. So...let's say I make $18,000 that year add $2000 from this summer and $2000 from next summer plus $3000 working through next year and the $3000 I have saved. That's $28,000. Then I will work while I am in university. About $3500 during each year and $2500 in the summers. Approximately $56,000 that pays about half. Then add scholarships and if my parents give me any...so I will need like a $55,000 student loan. Holy fuck.
Sorry for going on about this. It's pretty boring. I am so freaked out. That wasn't light. That was heavy. My heart hurts.

until next time, ciao.
Jennifer the very worried whale breeder

Epiphany on the bus

I have that feeling again.
The feeling that I've had an epiphany.
I now realize that no one in the entire world gives a fucking shit about anyone but themselves.
In an average conversation I avoid talking about myself because I know they don't want to hear it. I ask questions about the select person with whom I am conversing with.
They, minus the occasional specialties, respond quite well to the feeling of another person wanting to know about them.
They speak proudly of themselves or seek pity.
No one notices if I'm truly listening or just staring blankly at them.
I insert a yes, no, or a new question when it seems needed.
No one wants to hear about your life unless they, A) feel it involves them, causing them to feel pity, love, hatred et cetera for you B) They relate to said topic or C) They genuinely care(very rare).

Until next time, Ciao.
Lady Jenn the breeder of the whales